The Empty Canvas

Has another blog

2009-08-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

I has another blog nao!

it is at http://thisisourbs.blogspot.com/

it is mai bullshit blog

it is niew

it is wuvly

it is IN!

I is speak LOLspeak

You is go visit i's new blog: http://thisisourbs.blogspot.com/

You is following it.

-LOLexie-

I need a vacation!!!

2009-08-10T10:22:00.000-07:00

In case if I haven't properly advertised over and over again, its exam week over at Inti. And in case you don't know me, I plan ahead and therefore, here are my plans for my holidays:

1) Meet up with:
Saf, Sara, Dyna, Tassya, Justina, Sash, Cat, Mus, Nana, Daniel Goh, Sherry, Ridz, Tong, Pei San, Julia, Hana, Aiman, Dinesh, Darwin, Fani Fandi, Syaqua, Gene, Juelie, Lucille, Angel, Azza, Amy, Wendy, Bindi, Zingi, Nicole Chin, Aavi n partner, Michelle Augustin, Aunty Jen, Daniel Vampire, Botak Shahrul, Ms. Pots, Oscar, Michelle FD.
Its a long list so if I have somehow left anyone (namely you or someone you know) off the list, do contact me... To say that my memory is equivalent to an ostrich with amnesia would be a compliment.

2) Do my reading: The Game, Power of Now and all my newly purchased books.

3) Go shopping: Pull n Bear, CK, Sungei Wang etc.

4) Get motor lisence

5) Design office

6) Cook Salmon and make sushi

7) Do some DIY (The home improvement stuff not the well you know, stuff)

8) PARTY.

I got a feeling I'll have a pretty jam packed holiday break..
-Alexie- PS; Elaine n Me started a shared blog. So cools! Will update with links.

Michael Jackson / Farrah Fawcett

2009-06-26T03:59:00.001-07:00

Dude, Jacko just died today its only right to include him in (and ridicule him.. haha joking..). Well, a sense of sadness I do not have but however, a sense of respect I do have.

I mc-ed for English Day. First time MC-ing, god I was nervous! And I did terribly initially but after the warm up and backup by my co-host, Andrew, it was AWESOME! Oh funny thing, I found out about Jacko's death only during the event when they publicized it. A few dances were tributed to the King of Pop in the event too.

Besides that, Elaine (Ho) and I were on the way back from Thurkahs and we decided to have a silent tribute to him. All the way back home,we would shut the f up as a way to pay our respects to him. Trust me, thats one tough feat for Elaine (Ho) and me and the worst part of the journey was 2 drivers on the phone in front of us chattering away and driving pretty unfocused, annoying the f outta our 19 and 18 year old brains. But we remained silent despite offensive hand gestures.

On another note, Farrah Fawcett from Charlie's Angels passed away too from cancer (nobody seems to know this cuz the spotlight's all on Jacko). Double Bummer.

R.I.P.

from AlexieC

Btw, to all everyone out there, please do take care of your health. Heart diseases strike everyone at the unknown-st times. If Jacko and many other important people of both our lives have taught 1 thing, its to 'jaga' your heart. You don't want to be a victim.

Untitled 01

2009-06-07T08:57:00.000-07:00

I wrote a song recently out of sheer randomness. It just flows in. Here's how it goes. It has tunes and guitar chords already. I just need a name for it. Any suggestions?

"I’m waiting and singing in the rain
The cold cold water drops on me but I don’t care
Cause you will be

There for me and
Be here with me
You are all I ever wanted

Share my teardrops
Laugh my laughter
You’re all I ever needed

I’m walking and stopping down this road
The darkness creeps upon me but I don’t care
Cause you will be

There for me and
Be here with me
You’re all I ever wanted

Share my teardrops
Laugh my laughter
You’re all I ever needed

So tell me what went wrong
Tell me how I’ve lost you
I could’ve walked along
But I would still love you
And I would be

There for you and
Be here with you
I’ll be all you ever wanted

Share your teardrops
Laugh your laughter
I’ll be all you ever needed

There for you and
Be here with you
Share your teardrops
Laugh your laughter."

"Acting" rich kids

2009-06-01T05:18:00.000-07:00

Someone called me a rich kid.. Which I protested and said, "NO! I'M NOT A RICH KID! I'm an acting rich kid.." What is an acting rich kid? Let me show you the criterias required to be an 'acting rich kid'.

1) Owns a car (quite chun la) but no petrol wan.

2) Gadgets all latest but 2nd hand wan.. But he/she tells people that he/she bought it when it was just launched.

3) Handphone damn canggih but no credit wan.

4) Wears expensive designers but borrows money never return wan

5) And after that, no money to eat in proper restaurant will eat maggi

6) If they don't wanna cook, they will take away from the roadside stalls cause they will not be caught DEAD eating there by the other 'acting rich kids'

7) Conversation consists of how much items they own

8) Stays in areas that are 'high-class' but sharing it with 5 other people.. even so they're barely affording the rent.

9) Tells people they go on holiday trips but actually working somewhere secluded

10) Then goes back and tells people about the holiday trip based on reviews read online.

Oh I do not fulfill any of these above.. except maybe my car has no petrol sometimes.. If someone you know fulfills at least 4 of the above, make no mistake, he/she is an acting rich kid. If you fulfill at least 4 of the above, please do grow a brain.

The top 10 list!

2009-05-16T21:14:00.000-07:00

Of modern day Wonders who inspire love for jazz. Here they are (in no order at all)

1) Diana Krall

2) Karen Souza

3) Sophie Milman

4) Shelby Lynne

4) Stacey Kent

5) Katie Melua

6) Jazzamor

7) Jann Arden

8) Chris Botti

9) Jamie Cullum

10) Dave Koz

A tribute to Eva Cassidy

2009-05-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

Today, I discovered that my fav artist, Eva Cassidy has passed away back in 1996 due to melanoma (which is a type of skin cancer). Eventhough Eva has been one of my fav artist of all time, I know barely anything about her except that she retains a large essence of the Americana culture which I admire and love. Suddenly today I read her bio on Last.fm and found out that she passed away from the disease. When I read that I just felt a sudden gush of sadness for her despite that she is just a stranger to me. I love her music, I love the culture that she lives by, I don't know her. Which is what made me feel strange because I barely know the lady, how can I feel sad for her death?

In the end, I concluded that: even if I don't know her as an individual but I know her soul. Her soul is her music. Her immortality is within her music. And as far as I'm concerned, even if she has been gone for 13 years now, she still lives with us today with her music. Great artist she is.

Alex (the outdated)

New Sem, New Resolution

2009-05-11T05:34:00.000-07:00

(inserts crappy opening music here)

Its the beginning of the new semester and this semester, I am taking: Operating Systems, Founding of American Republic, Introduction to Advertising, Principles of Management and Anthropology. All 5 which are extremely unbearable. Wait.. Scratch that.. 4 are extremely unbearable, only 1 is just unbearable. And that 1 is Operating Systems. That is because we are given computers + internet so we can FACEBOOK and PHOTOSHOP within that 1 hour of class.

I have not been to American Republic class. Intro to Advert was VERY memorable in the sense that I actually remembered that the lecturer comes from the same area as where I live: Wangsa Maju. Anthropology, as my facebook status reports (done during class via iTouch) is B-O-O-R-I-N-G (Daniel can testify to this with his snoring) but on the plus side, we have field trips (work!) and the lecturer seems quite bubbly.

And finally, we have reached the rant of the day: Principles of Management; the most ironic class ever. The lecturer has no proper management. First class; I entered and she was setting up the laptop and everything which ate into the first 5 mins of the class. She asked a girl who was very clueless to fetch the RGB cable for the projector. While waiting for that girl, she chatted with us and spoke of getting the lecture notes photostated. Then the girl arrived back saying that she can't obtain the cable so the lecturer went to the very same place to fetch the cable. Just setting up wasted 15 mins of class time. In between break time, lecturer started talking about her experience of working in China for about 15-20 mins.
Second class, I arrived 20 minutes late and lecturer was only on slide no. 1. In fact, it seems like she just started. During break time once again, she started displaying and guiding us on her experience in China for another good 15-20 mins. Not only her time management is terrible but she tries to hard to be funny and it just makes her seem bad. And she has little 'technical knowledge'. She asked us how to understand people, to which I answered EQ (Emotional Intelligent Quotient), she said, "No need EQ EQ all!" What is that supposed to mean? She just said, "You need to listen." I don't know. YOU LISTEN TO ME, ITS EQ!

Signing off,

the frustrated Alexie.

This little mystery novel called "Life"

2009-05-06T07:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes in life, unexpected things happen. These unexpected things that I mean are bad things that are usually avoidable but somehow we were not 'lucky' enough (Or sometimes it is that we are not unlucky enough).

This concept is very abstract and I will illustrate in a series of real life examples. Last time, I got into an accident. It was stupid in the way that it happened. It just feels like I lost my focus for a split second and next thing you know, BAM! It hits! It was during a jam so there was not much damage or injuries, thankfully. However, the way the accident happened was so silly that it could almost be comedical.
That accident could be easily avoided but it happened. Why?

Another example I will demonstrate is: a close friend of mine, recently lost her wallet the night of her birthday. It contained RM 180 (which was a gift from her mom), her IDs and her spiritual talisman (dont know what you call it besides talisman). She was confused because if she had placed it in her bag. If it fell out, another friend walking behind her would've noticed. If she had dropped it outside the house, her mom could've seen it. But the wallet is lost. Why?

Well, I'd like to think that no matter what, we humans living under this sun have a spiritual bond with the spirits. Whether it is God (whichever God you believe in), Karma or just the good wandering spirits or even Gaia, spirit of the Earth. These spiritual guardians protect us. Like my friend says: if we give out to the world positive energy, the world will in return protect us from harm.

My conclusion is: The silliest mishaps happen to even the best of us. Does that mean that we are careless? Dumb? Irresponsible? NO. It is a way that these spiritual guardians protect us from even greater mishaps. If the tiny accident had not have happened, I could've landed in a bigger accident that could've caused me my life. If my friend had not lost her money, ID and talisman, she could've lost even more money, even more important documents and it will ultimately affect her life luck.

Any mishaps happened to you lately? Just remember whatever is meant to happen will happen. Give nature the positive, nature will give back to you. Peace OUT

AlexXx ;)

So simple yet so hard

2009-04-29T06:57:00.000-07:00

Just want to hear you say for once: Good job
Just want to tell you everything without: Why did you do that???
Just want to know that whatever I do is not shit
Just want for you to embrace me unjudgingly
Just want for your unconditioned love

I don't want to hear anything that you find hard to tell me because of the shields you've built up.
But I just want you to maybe even nod and say good; I will understand what is inside.
And it'll make me feel like my life is actually worthwhile.
And finally, just tell me: Thank you.

Think I can write a song? (or at least a poem?)

Alexie VC

Yesterday

2009-04-28T08:16:00.001-07:00

All my troubles seem so faraway~
Now it looks as though they're here to stay~
Oh I believe in yesterday~

Today I don't know why, I felt soooooo empty. Many times I occupy myself with work, activities and etc just to avoid this moment. This is why I choose to stress myself out. I wish you know, I could stop pushing myself and just feel happy the way I am. And this emptiness/depression has been lingering since I don't know when and it is practically baseless. I guess I'm still searching for contentment (layman terms)/enlightenment (Buddhist practitioner's terms)/ self-actualization (Maslow's terms).

Whats been going on in my life? Nothing really. Today I went to collect my results; Ain't out yet. Went makan with friend then visited the pet shop where she was like sooo manja with the Pomeranian puppy (haha they both look damn cute together! She was all manja2 with it and the puppy was naturally cute la). Then played pool.

Boring post, yea I know. I'm uninspired. There are probably something that's keeping me down. I hate that something but everyone else seems to be talking; singing songs; making movies and searching hard for it. Hope you can guess what that something is..

Alex to da V

(nigga x my nama?)

At Malacca

2009-04-26T06:24:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, Elaine + Charlene + Colin + Nicko + Me went to Malacca. Gawd I haven't been to that heritage town in ages! The trip was fun! It was a great historical town with lots of tourist attractions. Great people over there. Great indie stores that sell cool art tees that you canNOT find over at KL. Cool antique shops. Cool souvenior shops. Cool foodstores. and they were cheap too! I enjoyed my trip a LOT. After Malacca, we dropped by at PD. Had fun in the sand. Mini picnic and kicked the water a bit as wel as camwhored!

Bought 4 cool indie art shirts, 1 fedora; Ate Chicken Rice Balls. I <3>

Alexie von C!

Feelin' da "ConneXion"

2009-04-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

ConneXion is a weekly Christian fellowship gathering. I don't know what they normally do during the regular Friday gatherings but this time, Genevieve (a.k.a. Da Stripper!) invited me over for their open mic event.

So there I was with Gene at the ConneXion. There was hot and cold drinks as well as snacks available for us. Besides just random people standing up to the mic, we were tossing 'life-saver' candies at each other, chit chatting, sketching random art on mahjong papers, playing ping pong and games. It was fun. I look forward to the next open mic. :)

Pictures of ConneXion!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=159105&id=1605908454&l=60e36b9bb8

And Malacca trip tomorrow.. Yuppies?? (Tired and broke makes me don't enjoy it as much)

Love, Me me me

The Mahsuri Experience

2009-04-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

My first big-scale musical production and I like!

Angel is starring in Mahsuri and so she invited me to go watch the press screening. So apa lagi? Go lah! And so I dragged Elaine with me to go watch la.

Out of the musical, I think that there was no proper system with: the cafe, before entering the theater. First of all, the cafe had no queue and had a very messy system. We ordered our food, stood 'in-line' when suddenly everyone rushes everywhere. Imagine a piece of corpse and all the vultures are eating it up, that was how the situation was like. We ordered our drinks then the lady told us, after paying to go repeat our orders at the drink counter. Without a bill, anyone can just go over to the drinks and order whatever they fancy even if they didn't pay for it. Second of all, there was no queue before going into the theater so once again, people where like pushing and shoving to get into 2 entrances. In the process, I got my foot stamped over by a lady in heels which I will get into shortly..

Malaysians have no etiquette or courtesy or politeness. The lady in heels pierced the edge of her heels into my loafers and did not even turn around to see whom she had hurt (let alone say sorry). People (big men) were pushing around without consideration for us smaller and weaker beings. Before the start of the performance, they played the 'Negaraku'. People behind us were actually laughing during the song. Disrespectful and immature. When the show had begun, members of the audience were loudly chatting away. Its sad to see such mentality in our people.

However, that aside.. The musical was incredible! Props were amazingly beautiful, very well made and also professionally planned. A lot of attention to details. Costumes were colorful and bright. No pics cuz filming or recording ain't allowed. Actors and actresses performed really well in terms of vocals, timing, choreographing and etc. The lead actor had a rich tone of voice which really brought the emotions out of the song. The lead actress had a beautiful voice too. Me + Elaine loved the soundtracks to the musical. :) nicely composed, written and just plain beautiful. The performers were also really good at their own characters. Me + Elaine grew a hatrate towards the witch lady; wife of Sultan guy. Her 'sihir' act was creepy and very distorted. Scary... Overall, I give my thumbs up for that enjoyable musical. Only comment I would give is: language barrier (difficult words & lack of proper intonation) for people whom are not as advanced in her Bahasa as the Malays themselves and therefore the plot is sometimes rather hard to follow. If you haven't seen it, should definitely go. Tickets are cheap anyways! Why not?

On the comical note;

1) Mahsuri is too plain as a name; It should be renamed to: Everyone loves Mahsuri (except the witch).

2) The education system in Langkawi is good cuz' a kampung lady could actually say: "Please! Somebody help!"

3) Langkawi should invest in better equipment! They use made-in-China swords that's why can't kill Mahsuri!

That's it! My Mahsuri Experience! Thanks to Anna Maria/Maya/Angel a.k.a. AMMA! :p

The critical, the loud, the bold (drum rolls) Alexie!

Daily Rantings and Discoveries

2009-04-23T01:41:00.000-07:00

Thursday; Ever so hot day.

For those of you who didn't go or don't know, last night as the 2nd annual KL Word party: Lust. It was Elaine's birthday. I've also won a Little Black Book! :D yeay! Wanted 1 since like it first released. Now I actually don't have to meet the seller and arrange to buy the book. No pics la.. its just a plain black book with cool B&W pics of lezzies. However, you can go to my Facebook link to see the pictures of the party: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=158997&id=1605908454&l=483f0eb400
And now, around 13 hours later, here I am sitting with a migraine, blurred vision and sleep deprived. Mom is seated in front of me talking about the things she always talk about: work, work, work and work (I almost seem to know every single person in her office and car wash already). OH and a change.. nagging at me for something I didn't do and forgetting what I told her again.

Anyways, a couple of nights ago, I dreamt that my house was broken into by a man. The man was slightly taller than me; he was quite big but not exactly in shape; Malay; hair was pretty short and side-combed quite neatly; face was slightly unshaven. There was only my mom, my cousin (girl) and me in the house; Dad and bro was elsewhere. He was threatening us and telling us to be still while he takes the items. At the back of my head, I knew he had the intention of raping them too. Well, there's a dagger in my room (even in reality just in case). I managed to sneak away while he was threatening them. I grabbed the dagger and came back and slitted his neck from the back. He died just like that. Before I killed him, I told myself: If I have to attend court for him, I will not be put behind bars. This is self-defense.

There was this rush of bravery in me that triggered me to kill the intruder. The killing was done rather neatly and respectfully; Almost professionally I would say. I just slitted him, the blood flowed out from his neck and the times as the blade drove deeper into his neck, he turned to look at me. He wore this look of shock and anger on his face. That was terrifying for a temporal moment but I was almost there. And at one point, I felt his bodily tension release and the man just felt motionless and I knew that I had removed him from his life. And after that, I released the body of the man which I had grasp onto. He fell like a thud onto the floor in front of my crying mom and cousin. Right after that, a rush of emptiness intrudes within me. I starred at the pile of unmoving mass on my bedroom floor. The feeling (or rather, non-feeling) that I felt was indescribable.

It was quite an awakening dream. Me being the psychology-st (Not to be confused with psychologists; psychology-st means psychology student), I took my dreams and unraveled its lateral meanings. I think what it is trying to say is that I took the courage and dared to commit to removing something from my life that will result in a better good for all. What is it that I removed? How is it that I remove? It is all symbolized in the description of the man as well as the killing.

So what do you all think?
Anyways later I'm going to go see 'Mahsuri the musical' thanks to Anna Maria/Angel/Maya. Looking forward to it! :) And tomorrow ITS CONNEXION PERFORMANCE DAY! WOOTZ! Play guitar, take pics, eat good food and meet good people. Peace Out

Your sayang Alexie

P.S. Google toolbar is so super duper awesome especially for us bloggers who 'poyo' want to use all the pro words but don't really know the spelling and whether theres such words even.

Weekly Plans

2009-04-21T20:39:00.001-07:00

The week of 19-25 Apr 09

Sunday : Rest and sit around at home day
Monday: Casting at Eden Restaurant, shopping at Sg Wang & Dinner at Shah Alam
Tuesday: Cleaning out my closet day
Wednesday: Performance practice and KL word day
Thursday: Chill out and Mahsuri screening day
Friday: Connexion performance
Saturday: Jalan2 Carik Makan at Malacca day

Love, your one and only...

First Post

2009-04-21T04:46:00.000-07:00

I don't know how many first posts I've created.. Its all because of the lack of staying power in me. So according to that lack of staying power, I can only hypothesize that I will have an inability to sustain long term relationships, a career and a hobby. Well, those the hypothesis have so far been proven on those 3 aspects stated which is why my longest relationship lasted me 2 months, I have no proper job despite working for almost a year and my hobbies constantly change. But one thing does prevail though, my will to gain more staying power.

Anyways, I'm not gonna talk about that today.. Today I wanna be pressing on the cause:

"BOYCOTT MAMAKS!!"

They are unhealthy. Nuff said.

Opt for healthy, wholesome meals.

And to further follow my cause, I did some research on healthy cooking's recipes [Recipes cuz' everyone knows the beneficial aspects of homecooked food, esp healthy ones but they just have been unable to follow so far because of our changing trends of convenient foodstuff eg fast food]

so far, links I've found are:
http://www.healthy-quick-meals.com/
http://www.helpguide.org/life/healthy_recipes.htm
http://www.1001recipe.com/
http://www.healthy-eating-made-easy.com/
http://www.foodnetwork.com/

also, you can drop by everyone's fav site, YouTube for episodes of Martha Stewart, Rachel Ray and etc for makan recipes! like: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6-b4bqM5ac&feature=related (but I only went to see cuz of Rachel Maddow, every andro/softbutch's hero)

now I'm hungry.. off to Sushi King.. Japanese food is healthy fyi; thats why the japanese live up to 100s if they have yet to commit suicide before that.
Btw, Elaine and Charlene have a cause too.. Its more noble.. Its on charity and stuff [which I don't do cuz' I'm a very ME-person]. Do drop by their blog for it (link will be up soon).

/!\

[The very Me-person]